Cat’s Whiskers

I’ve been struggling with pain for the last couple of days, physical pain, i’ve been taking some meds and waiting for it to go and can’t help but reflect on how grateful i am. I am alive and my pain is the proof even though i hate it. Even though i have been sleepless for 2 nights straight because of it, i’ll survive it like i did before and enjoy life without it for a while. We’re all so focused on numbing our pains that we forget what an amazing proof of life those pains are. What about the psychological pains that we carry? I have been dealing with depression for over 10 years and that kind of pain is the most excruciating pain i’ve ever felt.

Bruises, toothache, back pain, broken bones, joint pain, they all have their level of intensity but the pain that comes from within you, your soul, your heart, that pain breaks you. And even though you put yourself back together afterwards it’s never the same again. But still again it is the proof you are still in the fight and that is something you should never forget. I usually retreat into myself for a while, i’ve always tried to soothe myself while breaking, it’s always been my strategy.